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What makes it a struggle even after a thousand posts?

Writing is hard, particularly if you hate it. For some folks, like yours truly, it’s not the act of writing but the timing that makes it all hard. Allow me to explain this using three of the biggest reasons why I struggle with writing in 2020:

  1. My demanding schedule (work, side-projects, physical activities etc.) requires that I sleep and recover more often than the average person. Yet, I don’t do it. I’ve been adamant about sticking to my schedule of waking up early, writing, reading, physical training before getting on with my day to focus on work and projects has taken a toll on me. I’m seeing the signs now and need to take my foot off the gas pedal before it’s too late.
  2. I still haven’t developed the habit of writing at will, as in — anytime and anywhere. It’s got to be the first thing I do in the morning else it’s not going to happen. And mind you, I can still writing first thing after waking up at 6 or a 7 am (when most of the folks at home are asleep) but I can’t seem to make that happen. It seems my mind’s stuck on that 5am writing schedule I used to follow back in the days and it hasn’t make the adjustment to the realities yet.
  3. Deep down I know that sleep, rest, and relaxation aren’t a luxury but a necessity. And the whole reason why I reaffirm that “it’s overrated” is because I’m afraid I just might embrace it and become a slacker who just talks about those big dreams but doesn’t want to make an inch of an effort. Why? Because my sub-conscious still carries that image of a lazy, chilled-out yet restless and highly insecure teenager who doesn’t want to try hard because he’s afraid to fail and be criticized.

I’m not sure if you can relate to these. Perhaps, these aspects resonate with you at a different level in another area of your life? Or maybe, it doesn’t at all. The key is that the achievements and accolades — for me, completing a 1,000 daily posts was a milestone — don’t make it easy for creators like me to produce every day. The struggle is for real. The “easy” days are few and far between.

Is there an anti-dote? Thankfully, there is. And it starts with self-care. That could mean I need to focus on rest and recovery more than ever, which means I will have to stop working at 8:30 pm so I can go to bed at 10 pm. And I already feel uncomfortable as I write this! What’s the worst that’s going to happen? Some unfinished work to wake up to and that’s not the end of the world.

Besides sleep, I need to focus on making the hours that I’m awake matter a lot more. Including getting into the habit of writing when everyone’s awake. And that would mean I need to get super-good at blocking out distractions. So, that’s a lot of “NOs” to new projects, online meetings, and chat time with friends and family.

I know that’s a lot of adjustments I need to make. But I’m better off making them than struggle with this feeling of “trying but not making it” for the rest of my life. I think Jim Rohn said it the best, “don’t wish things were better, wish you were.”

Touché.

P.S. Just so you know, I write this at 8:30 am…
P.P.S. I still plan to write in the AM and post in the PM. It works for me.